Well, I am not sure if this counts as coming out to her, we are really close and I really adore this girl, she knows, but we have not really discussed the matter or put pressure on it (turning or not into a couple), the most sexual thing we usally do is cuddling, and I often spank and squeeze her ass, so all fine for me (i usually satisfy my lust with other girls), we also used to work out together (at my home gym) and things stayed in that warm, steamy but ambiguos state, for me at the moment thats all fine. Moving to the main topic, we usually share plenty of stuff through instagram dmss and emails, like nerdy stuff we are into, jokes, travel ideas, since we started training together I started to share with her both classical fit girl booty influencers (think mostly Brasilian style curvy fit girls) but also, what would be the gay equivalent, I mean strippers and gay models,(also thong clad very built guys), I dared to tell her that one day I would love to model like that, and she was as usually entusiastic and happy about it, she wished me luck in getting built like a stripper and told me that it would be a very interesting twist on my acomplishments. Recently I also told her about my first experience wearing a thong at a public pool, I told her that I was very shy about telling her, but that it feel extremley addictive to feel so sexy and catching looks, I told her that I hope she joins me soon (of course she is super curvy, thick and drop dead gorgeous, but very shy about her clothing), and that I would like to dress in lesther lingerie with her for a pride parrade, she laughed but was also happy about it. She moved to another City, not far away, for her máster degree, I hope that both of us have time to hang out or go on a vacation soon, but I also nervous since I did not put much tought into this, In our usual semi autistic way I emailed her a couple of articles about the increased prevalence of bisexuality and its possible genetic and social divers, as usual I teased her about her girl crush on Dua Lipa and Braszilian dancers, and added that I would fell glad if an extremley sexy boy considered me worthy of seduction and that I will not resist. All goes in acordance to our usual humor, and tone of interactions, maybe I am being a bit paranoid. She is the closest I have had to a girlfriend on a long time, I have had couple of friends with benefits, but the bond and feeling does not compare to what I feel for her. I know that, thats why I care so much, most of my female friends now fully about my cravings and ocasional gay experiences, but since although I find all of them very hot, their opinión of me did not really mattered that much to me. If this girl ever turned into my girlfriend (I know, I know we almost dry hump and cuddle on the same bed while traveling, but just for the sake of naming the social constructs), I am affraid of repulsing her, I know that once she dated a bisexual guy, horrible abusive dude, from friends In common I know that she was always kind of insecure due to his mostly gay past experiences (let alone the usal problems a young girl faces when dating a narcisit). I know that I will get extremley nervous, and probably I will blush if I she ever asks me directly about my bisexuality, honestly I want her to, the idea just turns me on so much. Only once I had sex with a guy, it was just a casual hook up, its funny that this boy lived very close to her, I actually told him, he said that we would do all what I long have craved to do with her and to her, delicious experience (we were making out in shiny thiny thongs for so long), I craved so much that she was there, either to join or just to watch. What ever feedback you have its appreciated, I just wanted to vent out mostly. Thanks so much for reading.