How do you feel? That's the question my wife asked yesterday.

Been just about a year since I joined here asking for advice. It was literally just hours before my first sexual encounter with another man. I had so many questions and I really still do.

I told her mentally I'm great. I have almost no questions about the psychology of my friendship and sexual relationship with my friend. There are a few things that I'm curious about though. When I see my friend, I don't feel love in the traditional sense. I like him very much, we have a lot in common and when I see him I want to be close. When I see other men, I have no desire to get close to no less have sex with them, I find that a bit odd since I truly love seeing my friend naked, touching him, kissing and having sex with him. Lack of interest in other men since I'm so in to having sex with my friend is a bit puzzling.

I answered her questions as best I could and then turned the convesation around. I asked her how she felt seeing her husband sucking another mans cock, getting fucked etc. Her responses to my questions made me feel like we're okay. She knows I love her and I know she loves me . I asked how she felt about me having sex with her girlfriend and she said she totally enjoys watching.

Bottom line, I got the chance to live out a fantasy, really more than I imagined, much more. That said, if there were a change of heart, I would give it all up. If my wife for whatever wanted our adventure to stop, I would/could.