Trying to find some perspective on how I can understand myself better and wondering if anyone else has gone through the same. Throughout high school i was very sexually repressed. At the time I would have considered myself a needy bottom. However, after high school i could not bring myself to the act on anything penetrative. And was not comfortable with the dynamics of bottoming, eventually idk what happened but felt better in my skin as a top and I went out with plenty of dudes throughout and slept with them too. This year, I've found myself with a woman, and it has been the most romantic thing ever, hardly sexually attracted to dudes

Anyone else and what even is the thought process behind this LOL.