During my teens, 20's and early 30's I would describe myself as homophonic by peer pressure meaning I would agree with homophonic statements but wasn't going around with an agenda or starting homophonic rhetoric.

I was in my early 30's and my ex and I were involved in swinging and at the time, we were both enjoying swapping and it was always her fantasy to be with two men at once, while I was pushing for another woman. She had no interest in other women and I agreed to try it as an experiment.

She was talking to potential partners and came back to me with a choice between a straight guy and a bi guy. I must admit I was taking back as I thought she was homophonic as well based on previous things she said. I asked what she wanted and she admitted she wanted to try DV and that was sort of bi, and also said it turned her on to think about in a threesome where the guys experimented with oral. I told her I wasn't sure I could do oral but DV sounded like something I would try.

We met for drinks and had a hotel room that we went back to the room after all feeling comfortable. We sat on the couch and she had us both take our pants down and jerked us off at the same time. She also had us remove our shirts next and because of her mini skirt and white buttoned blouse, we both unbuttoned her top together and slid her panties aside and took turns playing with her pussy. We were both rock hard and I admit I was watching her hand jerking his cock. She noticed that and told me to move infront of him and give him head. It seemed natural and he smiled so fear of being called a fag were gone for the moment so I did it. I tried it for about 15 minutes and during this time the comments my wife made were somehow a turn on but also scared me. Specifically, the comments "I just knew you would be good at sucking cock" and "that's it baby, get his cock nice and hard to fuck me".

It was surreal and I only backed away to let her climb on top of him. Eventually, I entered her at the same time giving her DV and it was enjoyable. We fucked her for 2 hours and he had great stamina but there wasn't any other bi activities except I licked her while he fucked her in a 69 position and there was some contact and he pulled out and came on her ass and I did get some on my face and chest and as I was being jerked off in this position with oral as well, I came at the same time.

We thanked him for the experience and he left. We talked about the experience and with post nut, I was feeling ashamed and said it was a one and done and that I wasn't bi and loved women. I probably should have not done that in hindsight as we continued to open our relationship and she hooked up with him again with his buddy that I found out about afterwards and she confessed everything including that she basically watched them have sex together before joining in.

I not only regret now not experimenting more, but in reality it made us fall further apart and I was hooking up with other women as well and we decided to go our own ways and split up. I can only say years later it was a mistake not to embrace that.

I eventually met a hot woman who I shared that experience and the shame I felt but also I thought about giving oral to another guy and it wouldn't leave me. She was turned on by this and she insisted on being able to watch me do this and since we were just FWB dating, she had played with another guy that was bi and set up a threesome. I was much more comfortable and we blew each other and it ended with him cumming in my mouth, and me cumming in her mouth. He had a girlfriend and didn't stick around after he came.

I again retreated on my new secret identity after she was concerned I liked it too much and may be gay. I was clear that I was not attracted to men per say, and a nice looking cock and sucking it in front of her was my level of comfort and had no intention on changing teams.

It did have an impact on our FWB relationship and eventually I met someone vanilla and started dating. I was wanting to get far away from swinging and did not speak about my past experiences or sexual fantasies to my new girlfriend and just dating and figuring things out for the longer term.

As I traveled for work, I found myself looking at male looking for male for blowjobs and handjobs only. I found a guy and after sharing emails, pictures and ensuring there would not be kissing, we met in my hotel lobby and went up to my room. We both got naked and started by sitting on the bed jerking each other off and watching straight porn on my laptop on the desk beside the bed. It wasn't long after, that we laid on the bed and took turns blowing each other and then moved to a side by side 69 and sucked each other. We also frotted as he climbed on top of me and spread my legs so that he was sliding his cock against my cock. It was hot and his cock would rub my cock and balls and at one point I thought he was going to try fucking me as I was in a submissive position. He didn't try to enter me, and jerked us off together and came all over my cock which caused me to cum in response. He got up, grabbed a towel from the bathroom, cleaned up and left and we never saw each other again.

I panicked that now I could do this without a woman and swore this would never happen again without a woman present.

Next trip I met up a couple looking for a MMF and had an amazing experience mostly being the bull and letting him suck me and cleaning my cum off her pussy and instructing him to clean up.

I was dealing with wanting to break up or stop dating the woman I was seeing over guilt. I was also trying to deal with this new fascination with cocks and bisexual acts.

I ended up meeting another woman who we fell in love right away and the sex was so amazing that I didn't feel the need to continue my ways and managed to bottle up bisexualy for a while.

In this relationship though, after 4 years and one night after drinking I confessed to having bisexual experiences. This was not a good thing as I was shamed and had to explain that I wasn't active and was not acting on it. It made a clear change in her and how she looked at me and as I found out, she was a serial cheater and was having sex with a younger co-worker.

Our lives were entwined at this point and although I confronted her and told her it was cheating unless she did this infront of me, but she denied it and our marriage started to go dark as we did not communicate very well. She would have sleep overs with girlfriends once a month, although deep inside I thought she continued to be having an affair. I wasn't speaking with other women and based on the emails I found, she was 100% cheating. She did admit that she thought about other men and I told her I would allow threesomes and we started roleplay where she and I discussed cuckold scenarios that included bisexuality.

We had a few experiences together but the next 8 years would tell me that she was a serial cheater and we fought about explicit details of her affairs on our computer as she forgot to close her email.

About 7 years into our marriage, and her going away on vacation with the "girls", I found out that the trip actually included a few guys, one of whom she dated before me. How it all came out was that I drove her and her 2 other girlfriends to the airport and there was a traffic jam so leaving that area was long enough that as I got to the other end, I saw her embracing a guy at an entrance and recognized him from a few pictures she still had of him when they dated. When I got home, I accessed her email as she was sloppy with a few passwords in a notebook. The email was pretty detailed on the trip and initially inviting him and that her friends wouldn't tell and that she and her other married friend shared the room with her and would share him.

I thought about calling her and busting her, but a few drinks later, I started surfing swinger sites and finally to ads looking for bisexual male. Her trip was Friday to Friday and on Saturday I met up with an attractive, fit and 20 something bisexual male. I was now 39 so the age difference was visually great. We met for a coffee Saturday morning. I told him during coffee that my wife was away with her boyfriend for a week and asked if this was a one and done or if he would consider a week of play and he said it depended on the first.

We came back to our place and we went to our bedroom and sucked each other and his cock was amazing and I gave him a nice sloppy blowjob and realized how much I enjoyed sucking cock.

I found myself in the same frotting position with me in bottom and him grinding on my cock with liberal amounts of lube on both our cocks. My legs were spread open and like my other experience, I felt like my ass was exposed and that he could have easily fucked me. In fact, he moved his cock to my asshole and rubbed his cock against it. He asked if he could fuck me, and I told him I had never done it and to let me think about it, but said he could just play with my butthole with his cock, but not to stick it in. He had me flip over and fucked my ass cheeks much like a tittie fucking and when it got intense with him putting his cock at my tight asshole, I flipped around and sucked him and swallowed his load. He was not impacted by post nut as he sucked me off and swallowed me.

We had both talked about liking women as well and had a shower together and agreed to go out to the bar later and try to find a woman to double team. When he left, I thought I may want to try anal and lubed up a normal sized dildo my wife had and inserted it and struggled a bit until I started squeezing the dildo and realized relaxing was key. Although it was only 20 minutes of that, and as I got ready for the bar, for the first time I could feel what it was like to be fucked.

At the bar later on, my friend and I had beers and all the sudden his girlfriend shows up. At first she was thinking he was there with a woman and he introduced me as his buddy and said we were just having a few beers and he was headed home. She seemed relieved but still the outcome was he went home and so did I. As he was leaving he said to me "do you still need my help in the morning?" I said "yes, 8 am work"? He said "let's make it 9 am after all it is the weekend and the two of them took off.

I went home and tried the dildo again and it seemed to be easier this time and jerked off this time and as I came, I hit my own face and even my ass had an orgasm.

Sunday morning, the doorbell rang and I was still in bed. I ran down and answered the door in a towel. I apologized and said I needed a quick shower and he said he would join me. We explored each other's body and I dropped to my knees and sucked him as he grabbed the back if my head and face fucked me that had me gag and also lube his cock.

He suggested we move to the bedroom and we toweled off slightly and the phone rang. It was my wife and I told my friend that it would be a short call as she was away. I laid on my stomach and talked to her and she was making small talk about the resort and that her friends were at breakfast and she could only be a few minutes as she was meeting them but wanted to check in. I felt different and knew she was cheating and I had a guy in her bed so it was sort of even.

As we small talked, my new buddy drove his cock in my mouth by surprise and when she asked what the noise was, I said I was brushing my teeth and tounge and gagged. I shook my head no at him and gave him the hold on a minute sign. He walked to the other side and grabbed the lube bottle beside the bed and squirted some on my ass and some on his cock and ran his very hard cock in-between my cheeks and then tried to enter me. I gasped a bit and told my wife I just got a leg cramp and shook my head no. He returned to just slapping his dick on my butthole and sliding it back and forth while jerking his cock. Thankfully the wife told me she had to run and she hung up.

As soon as I hung up, he pulled me up to my knees and pushed his cock inside me and slowly fucking me from behind. Assuming the dildo helped, he pumped me and it didn't hurt as bad as I squeezed my ass to milk his cock. He flipped me over and lifted my legs, sucked me, licked my balls, spat on my asshole and fucked me on top grabbing my cock and jerking me off while he fucked me. I came like that and my cum hit his chest and my prostate had a good time as it was convulsing which had him cum inside me.

He asked to shower again and we did so and he told me he had to go as he told his girlfriend we were moving a couch and then they were going to brunch.

A combination of shame and no future plans, maybe his gf knew , that was the last I saw of him and the last bi experience I had.

I pretty much suppressed it, wouldn't even watch bi porn and with having unprotected gay sex, I realized this was dangerous. From this point further, there was no bi sex and no bi porn. I worked to put it behind me.

About 6 years ago, after so many affairs, mostly on her side and her mean streak and problems with her alcohol addictions, we called it quits. The one thing she said during the break up, was that I was gay and should date men. I told her I was only bicurious and would be finding women to date.

I went on a dating spree with women and did admit to bisexual past with two of them but said it was when I was younger and wanted to leave it there. One of those women I remained close friends with and have shared my last two year struggle with my bisexualy.

For the past two years, I have dated here and there with sex with women, but began wearing panties to bed, and wear a butt plug to masterbate and at least once a week I fuck myself good with a dildo. I started watching bi porn and like straight guys sucking cock and before I couldn't watch two guys fucking but seem to not mind as long as the plot twist is first time. I still don't like guys kissing and I watch bi porn as much as straight porn. As I am single for 6 years, I could have hooked up with men without recourse but have not.

I feel such regret for my first failed relationship where I could have enjoyed bisexuality back then. It has been over 10 years since my last experience and sometimes when I am using my dildo, I wish it was the real thing and miss sucking cock.

Now that I am in my later 40's I am attracted more to women, and my type for men is under 40 and no idea how to find someone.

Would love suggestions. Any resorts that cater to single men who hook up?