I just got home after meeting my first male date for coffee. I was so nervous at first because I met him on Grindr, AND it's my first, AND I'm not out to family, so I was expecting any number of things to go wrong. What I didn't expect was that this guy being the perfect one to start on. He was so nice, respectful, and considerate. He made me feel comfortable and stopped immediately if I said to. He was very patient and understanding given my inexperience. SO

After a while I asked to go back to his place. The nerves started again. I followed him into the bedroom and we took off our clothes. He laid down and motioned me to get on top of him so I did. Unfortunately, I was very obviously nervous. What does this guy do? Tells me to take my time and relax, explore, and enjoy, and I slowly started to loosen up. He told me to just touch or kiss whatever I want, to just explore and get comfortable. The next thing I knew I'm begging him to let me choke on his cock. So in my first encounter with a man, I deepthroated, got fingered, fucked, cum on my face, the whole nine yards. Now I have a second date with a man, when not 3 months ago I was "straight". I feel like I've been missing out on so much pleasure in my life thanks to being indoctrinated with homophobia as a child.

I'm home now and I'm still having quivers thinking about him inside me. I am so happy that I took the leap and now I'll never be stuffed into societal expectations again 😭

If you've been thinking about giving it a try, but haven't, whatcha got to lose if no one knows? Keep your heads up and never stop improving on yourself!

p.s. this group has been a lifesaver for me!