Intro: so my wife and I have been together for 6 years, she does not know that I am bi curious. She has stated that she is against guy on guy contact, touching jerking off etc, and we are new to the swing lifestyle as well. Backtrack to my previous marriage, my ex wife was bi and I struck interest in maybe trying to be with another guy, my ex’s gay friend showed interest in me, we started chatting and hanging out and then one night we got together and was watching a movie, we started touching, making out, stroking each others dicks and we eventually started sucking each others dicks and he eventually did fuck my ass (my ex used to peg me also) which I thoroughly enjoyed but that was years ago and like I said I have been having “urges” again to suck and possibly fuck another guy again but like I said my current wife is not ok with it, and she has mentioned about wanting to try to play with another woman when we do find another couple to play with and, I have mentioned to her about pegging which she finds a total turn off and won’t even consider trying it, I’m at a loss and don’t know what to do with my urges! I find myself watching porn and what not but it doesn’t completely satisfy my needs. Apologies for the long post