Men of Reddit, I’m struggling with my bi side. How would you deal with it ?

Hi everyone. 25 year old male here. Basically all started when I was 14-17. I used to chat online and send pics to much much older men who were well aware of my age. It was the first sort of time I felt wanted and I was taken advantage of. Not the best start but I think this might play into the reasoning for my bi tendencies.

When I was 20 I was in a relationship with a girl for a year. It was great and guys never ever crossed my mind. Anyways that came to an end, sex with girls dried up. I grew curious for sex with guys as I thought it was much easier to get and wanted to scratch an itch.

Over the next 2.5/3 years I’ve hooked up with both genders. Slightly more guys due to it being easier to find. But every single time I hate myself after it , until I became horny again. I recently was in a relationship for 2 months with a girl ( came to an end mutually ) and told her about it and she was very cool about it all. While I was with her guys never ever crossed my mind and I was nearly ashamed to admit it happened. I was afraid she’d reject me.

I’m not romantically attracted to guys at all. Even when I’m in bars and get wasted I am like hell no if a guy hits on me ( happened before ). But I’ve gotten to the point where I feel I’ve reached the end of the road with guys. I’ve learned to have some self respect and not hookup with everyone and anyone, something I’ve struggled with because I can be very lonely and I get some validation from sex , that goes for both genders but I think it rules out guys completely.

Is it something you can truly say I don’t want anymore ? I feel like if I was in a meaningful relationship with a woman I’d want to be honest and tell her my past but I don’t know if I should. I do really want to close the book on hooking up with guys. The shame/guilt has never left after hooking up and I thought it would of by now, never get that feeling with women and it’s just not worth it for me anymore. Also I’m seeing a therapist next week for other things should I mention this ? I struggle with overthinking so I’m probably making this a bigger issue than it is.

100% genuine here. I’m just looking for genuine advice / looking to get this off my chest, thank you :)