I'm just a 31 year old guy who is sometimes assumed to be homosexual. I've always identified as straight, I never put much thought into it, I just liked women. I didn't pursue much of a relationship, I haven't ever really had a serious long term relationship honestly. It's very sad and I don't know where to turn anymore.

The facts: I can finish to gay pornography etc., but after I'm finished I don't want to do it again for a while, I go back to straight porn etc. and I'm not sure if it's denial or if I am just a tiny bit bi or what. Also, I only have sex dreams about women, I've never had one about a guy. I once asked an openly gay coworker/friend his thoughts and he deemed me "hetero curious".

I just seem to be eager to be around guys for the most part in my day to day life. Certain guys who are rather macho and carefree and humorous I tend to make an effort to connect with, I'm not sure if this is just platonic or if it's my subconscious trying to turn it into more.

I don't think it's as simple as just wacking off to naked strangers having sex to decide if you're bi or gay. I wonder if my reluctance to dive into gay porn and accept that it's pleasurable for me is due to my subconscious wanting a relationship and not just sex. Especially after so many years just alone as fuck.

I don't question my sexual attraction to women. I acknowledge my ability to jack off to gay pornography, but am trying to dig deeper. Reading that some gay men have sex dreams with females has thrown me off now too. Just very confused. Thanks for any advice.