Hey all,

I hope you're all staying strong through your own struggles with this shitty situation you/your partners have been dealt.

I made a post a few months back regarding my situation with my Bipolar SO / current ex if you want to get caught up on the details. I also made another post about the custody paperwork she surprised me with and the fear I had receiving that. Long story short, the conciliation went HEAVILY in my favor with us reconvening 2 months after to follow up. It was a sigh of relief that made me jubilant and was so desperately needed.

Since that conciliation meeting, things have been civil and calm. It's the first calm away from chaos that I've felt in... God knows how long. I'm only just now starting to truly mourn the loss of this relationship through horrific circumstance now that I have space to process it.

Now that things have settled down, I've been getting the same question pretty consistently and I don't know how to respond to it. "Do you think you'll be able to forgive her and reconcile your relationship/get back together?" I just give the answer that I'm going day-by-day and trying to make it through this shitty year before making any other major decisions like that. I don't know how to truly answer this question.

Am I wrong for staying out of this relationship because it's all stemmed from a mental disorder? Or am I doing right by my child by sticking with this current path? I definitely still love her despite all of the ugliness and madness but am having so much trouble trying to get past it all. I don't even know if I'm asking these questions in a way that makes sense to you all. I'm just trying to piece together what in the world happened this year and want to do what's best for my child. Any thoughts, insights or relatable experiences would be incredibly appreciated.

And feel free to reach out if you need someone to listen. It's tough, to put it mildly, but I'd love if my experience can help you through in any way.