So I was in a very healthy relationship for 2.5 years. When my ex went manic for his first time all hell broke loose. Abuse, trashed the apartment, kicked me out, cheated. I quit my job and moved home.

I feel happy and content in my life. I’m 29F. My parents think a dating app is good idea. I downloaded and have video chatted with a few guys.

I feel the inability to become attached or have feelings towards them. I don’t have feelings toward my ex, aside from a familial love for the old him. It feels like logically I can navigate dating but the actual emotion needed just isn’t there. Like when someone tells you to cheer up when you’re sad. You can’t force it. I also feel somewhat disgusted at men.

Im not sure if I would even be in a situation where I would have PTSD because I only dealt with my manic ex for a few weeks before we broke up (3 months ago). But I just struggle with being able to feel romantically toward anyone and I feel short tempered at all the nonsense and bullshit of dating