I’ve been staying strong accomplishing my goals, spending time with family, getting my career going, doing sports. But tonight is….rough.

I heard the song Married Life from Up and it made me bawl my eyes out. I left town becuase I was discarded. I miss my ex. I want the old him back. I loved him so much. Now he’s sick and suffering. We will never have a life together. I want to call him so bad but I know that’s bad for my healing. I want to hold his hand and cuddle with him. I want to go to the coffee shop and laugh and hug. I want to look at him and pretend what it will be like when we’re old together. I want my old life back. I want him back. I need someone to hug