I finally did it. I blocked my ex partner. She broke up with me when she met a crush at work. Since I have tried to be friends hoping she'd come back. Only thing I've had is a sucking sound from my bank account and much damage to my own mental health. Her crush doesn't want a relationship due to his pending divorce and the mental issues he has with it. She's homeless and she couldn't manage to go to work due to her mental health during the crush and rejection so lost her job too. I have tried to help her financially and well all I get is I don't love you and never will and a complete rewrite of our relationship. Last night I almost kms. It's not just her but also many other things. It was my daughter's birthday and I've been such a mess I forgot, but that kept me from kms. I couldn't do that on her birthday. I had told my ex partner on my way home from visiting her that I was going to do it, and all she could say is over me? Also if I was going to, to lose her number. Got up this morning and went about my day and without a good morning or how are you doing. I get "I unfortunately need to ask for your help". I then proceeded to tell her how shit it is to not show any caring and come out of the gate with that request, and the vitriol just escalated from there. I think I'm finally done this time. Why do we value them so much when they can rewrite our history, and move on in a heartbeat. Why do I feel like I'm abandoning her even though it's she who abandoned me. I feel bad to have lost her love and relief to let go at least for now. I tried to be her friend and I realize she is only in it for what she gets out of it.