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So Iāve not been sleeping super well. Iām also super tired, and have started hearing voices again. Iām really stressed and have horrible head aches. I feel so anxious. I miss drinking coffee and getting black out drunk. I miss driving fast. I miss having horrible unenjoyable sex. I miss staying up all night wide awake. I miss feeling sexy and sassy. I miss feeling alive.
And quite frankly I just wanna ditch the pills and drink a shit ton of coffee and induce a manic episode so insane Iāll be given a fucking elephant tranquilizer.
Any advice ASIDE from ādonāt ditch your medsā? Iām so sick of hearing from people that itās better to be healthy. OF COURSE I KNOW ITS BETTER! I know not to ditch my meds. I know itās supposedly better to live like a zombie than have the kind of insane fun I used to have.
I just wanna scream and cry and rob a store and get fucked silly and blast my music while I speed through town at 3 am.
I wanna feel alive again. And I havenāt felt alive in over a year. Not since I āgot stableā despite the fact Iāve been psychotic for a good 5-10% of this year so far.
Hearing voices doesnāt equate to feeling manic.
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