EDIT: I talked with my friend who recommended the place to me and he said 'oh, I'm sorry I forgot that they don't do complex disorders like that' . I wish I knew that, but it was an honest mistake. After calling the place back they said it was the bipolar. I'm rambling a lot because I'm just stressed, sorry,

i want to switch psychiatrists off of 'Spring Health' because that's what my work's healthcare provides/linked to but I want better care. My friend suggested the place he goes to. I was supposed to go yesterday but the psychiatrist got my papers in and said 'higher level of care' and canceled. The intake guy called back today after having other providers look at my file and they all said the same thing.

I just want to get re-evaluated for bipolar/borderline. I was blanket diagnosed in 2020 in inpatient. I was diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder a year prior; I genuinely want to see if it's possible I don't have it.

Now I have to go crawling back to my Spring Health psychiatrist again... I was just in Urgent care 2 days ago for a ton of physical issues and I'm still waiting for results on my thyroid results... I was in really bad shape. I have to go to an endocrinologist and gyno because he said it could be hormonal with everything else looking normal and I was like 'that makes sense because I'm literally on hormone medication'.

I've lost 16 pounds, I'm not trying to lose weight, and I've been trying to drink caloric drinks and I'm eating a bit more caloric food now. My hair is still falling out. Muscle spasms and other stuff. They did do a CT scan because they were worried it could have been a tumor but it came back okay which is great news.

IDK what to do. I was hoping to get re-evaluated and get better answers, get rid of some diagnoses that maybe I don't have and get more clear care. I think I may have ruined my life. IDK what to do. If I can't get a new psych then am I just screwed? Am I just messed up? I don't even trust myself anymore.