BIG win right there - being in public for more than an hour and it not be grocery shopping. Over 2 hours at the library. Working! :) I did it! I beat my record!

I'm starting to write again!
I'm still sketching things and not destroying them.
I let myself eat what I wanted without feel ashamed or micromanaging it.
I played with my rats without feeling guilty/horrible - and I cleaned their cage and their area of the apartment!!
I posted art without deleting it immediately after
AND I went to group! Twice!

If I can sit down and watch a movie or read a book, and not feel overwhelming guilt/shame, then I have accomplished everything I set out to do for over a year now. Maybe I don't have to watch an entire movie, that might be a lot. Baby steps. My hair is still falling out, but I'm taking the advice of everyone here as well as going to see a dermatologist when I can afford it again. Thank you.

Edit: I did this over a 2 week period because this was exhausting. I'm still depressed and I cried after doing most of this because it was difficult. Shame people who say this was mania - I know mania. I did this to climb out of a hole and I'm still in a hole. At least I'm trying and not making fun of people who are actively working on themselves.