Has anyone experienced the above?

My partner has gone backpacking around the world and will be gone for over a year. We agreed to open up the relationship as a result as sex and physical intimacy is very important to both of us.

I initially approached this very carefully and sensibly, but all that went out of the window after the first night I spent with someone new.

My life has been a full blown manic blur since. It's not been this bad since I was undiagnosed and a teenager. I've avoided drugs, but feel like I've been on them anyway with how much alcohol, caffeine and lack of sleep I've had.

Normally when I'm manic my bf is there to guide me. He's good at keeping me grounded, knows what to indulge me in and what to nudge me away from. But now I've just got myself and I dont make the best choices.