I know for someone who isn’t going through it themselves, dealing with a bipolar person can take a lot of energy and patience. I very much appreciate my gf for being understanding and accepting of who I am and what comes with me but often times I feel terrible and guilty because of the impact I have on her. She’s expressed how draining and overwhelming everything can be. I know I am difficult and the average person would have been given up a long time ago. I want her to be happy, to feel safe, and to have someone that can look after her instead of the other way around. Will this always be the dynamic of our relationship? I know she loves me but I know for a fact she also sticks around for my sake and I hate thinking that I am what holds her back from finding inner peace, healing her own wounds, etc. I feel like I’m holding her prisoner and alot of times I feel like a leech to anyone in my life. She says I’m not a burden but we always sooner or later come to the same crossroad, whether or not everything is worth the trouble or am I simply just too much to deal with. I think I’d be better off alone so that I won’t cause anymore harm to anyone but I also love her, we’ve been through ALOT, and I don’t know what to do. I guess time will tell if she can truly put up with me but I fear we’re fighting the inevitable most days.

What are you guys’ experiences with relationships?