To preface this, Ive abused caffeine since I was 12-13 years old, am now 32, and have never consciously took a break from caffeine in my life. I would drink cans of soda or energy drinks when I was younger, and as I got older i switched to coffee or energy drinks everyday. Just as a basis, last year I spent over $2000 on Starbucks on just coffee or drinks.

I haven’t had caffeine for 3 weeks now. It use to give me such awful anxiety and chaotic/psychotic thoughts. Suicidal thoughts as well if I had it during being hungover, like if I drank a coffee or had a Monster or Red Bull or something. I decided I would quit to see if it would change anything as far as my mood and the way it affects me. The first two days were absolutely brutal. I had a headache that never went away for more than 48 hours straight and 800mg of ibuprofen or acetaminophen didn’t help. I was also drinking a gallon of water a day so I was well hydrated. I was also very agitated at anything and everything and would even ignore my girlfriend because I would get pissed at everything she did/said. My face was blood red as well and I could hear the blood pulsing in my ears. Not sure if it was high blood pressure or what. During these first 2 days, my mind would bounce from thought to thought instantaneously, so fast that I couldn’t even finish thoughts in my head. I legitimately thought I was going insane. But it was just withdrawals. I didn’t sleep at all the first night. The second night I slept incredible, but probably from exhaustion from working all day on no sleep.

However, after that 3rd night, holy fuck…I’ve been sleeping like a baby ever since. Every single night, I close my eyes and I am instantly asleep and I never wake up anymore in the night and when I wake up in the morning I have so much energy and feel like I’m reborn or something. I have never ever felt this way in my life atleast not since I was a young kid. I have that amount of energy and focus. I no longer have any anxiety or existential or suicidal thoughts, and I am much happier and outgoing and social. It has also curbed my appetite tremendously somehow. I honestly don’t know why or how it’s affected me so fucking much or if it’s just my brain or whatever it is but I feel like I am a different person in every positive aspect just by cutting out one simple chemical. I substitute lemon water in the mornings instead of coffee/energy drinks. I also do not drink any soda whatsoever