I always feel like I'm not living in reality and I lack so much awareness. I'm so stuck in my head that all I feel as I'm unaware of the reality. I just don't feel the presence in the moment. It's so difficult to explain.

I don't know if it's the extreme overthinking or doubts or me being an introvert. This tiny little voice in head just never shuts down. I feel like I'm constantly engaged with it. I'm so tired of it. Anything I want to do that is challenging automatically the brain shuts down. I can't make myself do anything. The brain always win. I start to experience the anxiety, anxiousness and feeling of tiredness before doing anything. I think me doing the same things has destroyed the dopamine receptors like I don't work on my goals so I use my phone and chill around but since I keep doing that. I sorta don't like it. But at same time I also don't wanna work on my goals. It's like what is my brain trying to do