I have never had sexual relations with a woman but I think I started to have feelings for my best friend and since I told her while I was high she hasn't talked to me since. But she wasn't really talking to me before hand. But I'm not sure if it's just been the Delta 10 screwing with my head or if I am in fact bi. I mean when I use the Delta 10 I have fantasies about fucking my married lesbian pastor and when I see her at church I have no feelings for her at all. Also, when I have a sexy hot women come up in my reels on Instagram whether I'm high or sober I have fantasies of fucking her too and I enjoy lesbian porn. So I guess, I think, I have answered my own question but please tell me how I can get over the feelings of being a disgusting piece of shit. I've only come out to a few people and even then it felt weird. My other question is should I or should I not ask my pastor if she's ever had any weird vibes from me as in if she felt I was ever flirting with her? Please, help!! I'm so confused. I do have to mention my hubby of 14 years has known I'm bi for years now!! He's very, very, very supportive of it. I on the other hand hate myself for it and have been hiding/misusing/addicted to Delta 10 which I'm in the process of trying to give up!! Thanks for reading