I have been questioning for awhile, about 2 years now. Which was confusing until I remembered when I was about nine years old, I kissed my girl friend and was publicly berated by her mom. Her mom already used to bully me too. So I guess it makes sense my sexuality would be buried so deep. I also grew up in an emotionally abusive conservative family, so now that I have been out of state I have had time to find myself. I think I gaslight myself out of my sexuality? I definitely know I am bi I just want to cry when I admit it because I am scared to have to stand up to people. It’s a big trigger of mine since I have been protecting myself as a little kid i guess.

My only family member in the queer community says bisexuality doesn’t exist and that it’s just for people not brave enough to come out all the way. It trips me up even more?

Idk. I don’t usually mope around like this but it’s such a huge change. I know I have old mean friends that will say stuff too. I’m afraid people will pull the “omg she’s seen me in a bra” when I lived with roommates or blah blah. Because obviously it wasnt like that.