I only very recently (two months ago) admitted to myself that I’m bisexual. I’m only out to my husband and we have discussed my finding women to go with, and how he is happy for me to do so as long as I don’t go behind his back. Since then I have been looking into ways to make it happen. I have had three different women who I’ve got chatting with and the possibility of meeting up is not impossible as they all live within a reasonable distance. But every time it gets close to me arranging to meet, I get cold feet and back off. Is this the way it’s going to be from now on? My marriage isn’t particularly good and in addition, he has health issues but even with his permission it seems impossible. But also, the urge is getting stronger by the day and I need to act on it soon. The pushing and pulling in both directions is seriously starting to take a hold on my mental health. Amy advice, reassurance would be very much appreciated!