For a long time I have know I am not 100% straight and I've been caught in limbo of not knowing if I am curious or if I am actually bi. I've not experienced being with a girl so far but even before I became sexually active I found I would get the same feelings if I like someone regardless of there gender and I found myself attracted to both sexes. At the start I didn't know if these feelings were because I'd not experienced much at all due to only become sexually active quite recently but having wrestled with my urges I'm now coming to terms with it being more than just a curiosity and this being the true me. Even now I've only been with 4 guys but I've been on a voyage of discovery lately and I've shocked myself. I have always been extremely reserved and used a spikey front to distance an advances from anyone. I had very little confidence in my appearance having a petite frame, flat chest and bright ginger hair. The constant ginger remarks and the high school teasing about not having to wear a bra only reaffirmed the feeling nobody could ever find me sexually attractive. I was fighting the urge of wanting to experience the touch of someone but the fear of what it would open me up to. It's taken a lot and I've been places and done things I never ever imagined I'd consider let alone actually do but I am now feeling truly sexual and happy to embrace my desires like never before. I know a lot of people won't agree with some of the things I've done and the way I've gone about it but it has been right for me and it is right for me.