Where do I start? I have been craving cock more and more. I'm definitely not gay, I know that for sure. I love my wife and pussy way way to much just to go strictly dickly. We've been in a sexual rut for the past couple of years. I'm the freaky wide open one and she's somehow turned into rarely wanting me anymore. No, she's not cheating on me. We work at the same place and she doesn't drive. So when we're home we're home mostly. Since I snore (I guess) I've been sleeping on the couch since October maybe. We've slept in the same bed probably 7 times since then. It does get to me. I do wish I could get something on the side with her knowing about it and being supportive about it. I am still a man with needs right? I'll take a regular guy or girl once or twice a week. I'll even let her pick them out. I brought this up one time and got shot down hard. I felt like a group of ducks getting blasted by a 12 gauge over and over again. So I know that would never work. Jerking off alone and almost every night is getting boring at 38. I wish I could play with cocks more. I rather play with men than women at this point in my life and still have my wife. That would be a perfect world. I don't know how many other men are in my position or in the same boat. Someone should start a husband conviction for all who needs to get it out of their system every 3-6 months. Must pass std and hiv test. I needed to just write things out. If anyone would like me to do more of this comment below.