Ok so bare with me, still awake after a fantastic night from dancing to Steffi and the Lady Machine. Feel like it's good to get some thoughts off my chest. Perhaps to offer some insight to a experience others may have had. Overall i had a very good night, have a slight love/indifference relationship with Berghain right now with the new sound system amongst other things. I ended up spending the majority of the night with someone who i felt had reciprocal interest towards me, we shared interesting conversation, danced together, kissed, shared things that i had of which i didn't have too much of but felt obliged. This person had made some friends/contacts during the night and they acted quite cold towards me. Perhaps that was a sign of things to come.

At some point near the end of the night as things closed we lost each other, i went to collect my things and intended to meet them back where i last saw them. Whilst changing i saw them saying goodbye to their friends for the night and i wanted to give them space to do so. Then suddenly they were gone, they very clearly didn't go back to meet me where they last saw me. I went to ask their friend where they went and they acted extremely cold and gave me a vague answer. I suddenly felt a great deal of shame and that i had been used. A simple goodbye really would have been enough.

I often love the connections i make at Berghain, however fleeting they may be. Those small moments really make life worth living. I've had a relatively tough time living in Berlin and have had health issues the last years so it means a lot to me when i'm able to dance the worries away. However moments like this leave a bitter taste in my mouth, makes me feel that i'm not a worthwhile person to spend time with. Has anyone else had a similar experience? When someone leaves in such a way it just makes me feel as if the nice moments we shared were totally fabricated. As well as the fact i shared things with this person and also bought them some drinks. I definitely won't lose sleep over this but it feels good to write about it and i'd be happy to hear any thoughts or advice on the matter. Ultimately i always have a great time at BH and look forward to my next visit. I'll also add i wish this person no ill will whatsoever.

Edit: I'm very much over it now, I was running on absolutely no sleep and was quite emotionally drained from the experience so the negativity i felt was heightened. Didn't expect so many responses and thanks to everyone that had something positive to say.