I've been struggling to get in the mood to inflate lately.

I still live with parents and primarily inflate with water using the shower, so I don't always have the best opportunities to blow myself up. Lately though, even when I've had the house to myself for extended periods of time, I feel disinterested or put off by the thought of inflation, even after putting aside some time for it in my head. Then I end up regretting not taking the chance when I had it.

Since it's water I tend to inflate with, I think it's more so the time and clean up it generally requires that puts me off. Last time I inflated I spent nearly an hour in the bathroom emptying myself and even then I still felt like I had some water in me, plus the place reeked after it. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love inflating with water, just watching and feeling my belly blow up before my eyes and feeling the weight of the water increase as I get bigger and bigger is awesome, but the clean-up afterwards is disgusting (though I do enjoy the feeling of the rushing water coming out), not to mention I sometimes get this sickly dull or empty feeling in my bowels that lasts a few hours that makes me slightly nauseous or uncomfortable.

Sometimes when family are in the house and I'm in the shower I'm tempted to just stick the hose up my butt but I very rarely do, I don't want to risk getting caught or raising suspicions. I wasn't exactly quiet last time I inflated, though it was a lot more water than usual so it's understandable I was in there a while... I've thought about inflating only a little when family are in the house but I don't want to just inflate a little, I want to keep going.

I'm considering buying an air pump to try air inflation for the first time but I'd very much like to continue inflating with water as well, I've always done it with water and I just think it feels way too good not to try every so often. The problem is I have zero motivation because of the issues above. Hopefully air proves easier and is better for privacy, I'd imagine I could just lie in bed at night and pump away to my heart's content.

Any recommendations on how to make inflation more appealing though, specifically water? Every time I get the chance I just feel unmotivated to do it.