Going to try to keep it brief, to avoid a massive post.

Background- about 3 years ago I briefly dealt with bedbugs in an apartment. It was the perfect situation, because I was about to move out and buy new furniture anyways. I threw everything out- and everything else in my apartment went into a hot storage unit for 8 months. I never had any issues again.

now I have major PTSD/OCD about bedbugs. when I say major I mean major.

just traveled for about two weeks on a cruise, and stayed one night in a decent hotel before and after the cruise. did my normal checks, but nothing insane- corners of the bed, etc. looked fine. I have no bites, neither does my partner.

I broke out in a bad rash the day we got off the cruise, before staying in the hotel. and for some freaking reason this triggered me. I am now convinced we brought them home. we did wash and dry everything immediately. I don't know what other preventative methods there are- if we did bring them home. I have the creepy crawlies. i'm back to freaking out and over analyzing every itch or feeling. I don't know why. i'm sure it's partly due to traveling. but i'm in a RABBIT HOLE. I feel crazy.

just wanting some support- or words of encouragement. as I sit here in my bed trying not to get up and investigate every 5 minutes.

I know it sounds nuts. just hoping someone can relate.