Ugh 21F here been masturbating for more than a decade. I might have had a first orgasm 2 weeks ago but I'm not sure tbh (it was a short series of convulsions about 5 secs long and I felt rlly relaxed & tingly after). I tried again tn to have that same experience but nope. I'm so sexually frustrated and mad at myself. I usually don't feel any build up when masturbating, both with hands and vibrators (I have a wand and a rabbit). If the vibrator moves a millimeter away from the current angle or spot, I will lose the build up sensation. In most positions/angles, I won't feel any build up at all so I spend 99% of the time looking for a spot that makes me jump. It's honestly really uncomfortable & intense using a vibrator for me but my legs shake while other methods may feel better but there is no build up at all. I just feel so hopeless and hate how particular my body is.