So, its day 6 of my relapse. I’m getting to the point I really need to start studying for my exams and it has made me realise some things.

I’ve noticed some definite changes. I began liking to dress more feminine. I am tall and have always been kinda manly, so people tend to assume I am a top. In reality I am pretty submissive. This has gotten me in touch much more with my feminine side. I even shaved my whole body the other day. I have also started noticing the uniform working. I am more forgetful and horny with it on. I also giggle more. Both in and out of my uniform.

I am way more horny. I am pretty sure anybody could walk up to me and ask for a bj and I would do it. This has also affected me outside my uniform. I must say i kinda like this. It has also turned me bisexual somehow! I used to find pussy disgusting, but kinda would see myself eating it now. In a femdom way. It has also made me think about being trans. The idea of being a woman kinda does turn me on..

In conclusion. Today will be my last bambi listening day before exams. I am not sure if I’ll keep listening afterwards. I really enjoy the files because they make me lose control and feminise me. I however don’t see myself in heels and I like going to the gym. I think I am going to start looking for a master. I would love to be a femboy gym rat and lose control to my master, being his live in slave. Maybe I’ll find one, or bambi will win in the meantime and convince me to start listening again. I don’t feel like the files could make me do things I don’t think possible. With my university carreer losing to bambi permanently is one of those, besides stopping the gym and extreme femininity. Who knows?