So this Saturday I (20m) wrote a post about my first relapse. I had gotten really dragged in to listening to for the first time!

Since then it has been a rollercoaster of hypno. Sunday my boyfriend visited, so I didn’t listen. I spent the whole of Monday and Tuesday listening to BS. Tuesday morning I went out and bought a skirt and croptop at a second hand store. In the evening my Bf visited again, so I got grounded again. Wednesday it all started again and I have been listening since. I went to a different city to go shopping on wednesday and ended up buying a thong and a feminine looking pair of oversized jogging trousers. I have also ordered more lingerie and girly clothes from china.

Before starting BS I also listened to Vive’s I need chastity. I have been caged constantly when my boyfriend is not around and haven’t cum since Tuesday. I feel very comfortable in my cage and I even leave my keys at home without really thinking about it when I leave home. That is amazing! I’ve always been into denial, but I was never comfortable enough in them. I have ordered a smaller cage, which should be arriving soon :))

So, now about the files! I have noticed that I have become more feminine in posture and movement. I have also had urges that I have never had before. Crossdressing was never my thing and I have been doing that with my uniform and I even shaved my legs for the first time! I have even had fantasies about having boobs! I have never been into them, but the ideas of being this femboy beneath a much bigger guy is really hot. I must admit that I still don’t like all the references to heels, though I’m sure that will change too. XD

On my last post someone warned me about the iq files. I avoided them at first, but felt like I wasn’t changing much without them. When I started listening to them I found that they work by slowly conditioning me. I get the window wipers when I think to smart, but it als causes my eyes te twitch and me to feel discomfort. I feel like this could make me avoid using my intelligence in the long term, but I don’t think it will be that bad. I have also listened to the forst two lobotomized files and really enjoyed them. They give an intense (short term) daze. I have noticed having less speed with spelling.

I also must admit that the files don’t seem that intense. I have read about files that make you nauseous when you get aroused, this seems like child’s play compared to that. On the other hand, I might not be noticing everything. For example I listened to the Bondage trap file a couple of times. This morning I didn’t go that deep and I heard the suggestions about not knowing the changes to prevent programming. That idea kinda turns me on. Am I really missing that much?

Next week I have an exam and I have already spent to much time listening to these files, so I’ll probably lay off for a couple off days. We’ll see how strong the files have a hold on me.

Afterwards I will probably end up returning. I am really turned on by the idea of losing control to bambi. Having Bambi always convince me to be more sexual. Opening a message and losing hours of time, randomly waking up in uniform and becoming more and more submissive and feminine over time is really hot. Anyone wanting to help me lose control?