Kinda redemption Durge (deep gnome lock), running with Shart (heals & offsides), Karlach (tank babe), & Astarion (darling you *are* the skeleton key stabby/ranged).

Did the knock out after telling boss babe that I'll help her steamroll the druids. *Did not* realize that I had to make her "temporarily hostile" before knocking her out until */checksnotes* 10 hrs game time later.

Reconsidering my life choices right now anyway since I heard (I try not to read too far ahead of where I'm at so I can have some more quality escapism, yanno) that the post-"yay we didn't die" tiefling party was gonna be sexy but *everyone* turned me down even Astarion (he was *so r00d*!), I had *really* thought Gale & I had a moment when he talked me into trying his sparkly purple magic, and Karlach and I had a nice little smooch after I threw a cup of water in her face which was just so romantic.

/cry

Realized how I screwed myself with Astarion (several points where I did things he apparently wildly disapproved of), since I'm sitting at low neutral even though he approves of my actions more than Shart & Karlach and they're well into green.

Do I eat the 10 hours to go back and redo Minthara, not because I necessarily want her as a companion but more because I think I flubbed a quest line if she isn't at Moonrise Tower?

And if I'm gonna go back that far do I go back a few more hours to hopefully get some approval from Astarion & my sweet cuddlefluff Karlach??

or..do I just suck it up that I'm a tiny package of death and darkness that doesn't deserve good things and I will never reach "socially acceptable psychopathy" just like real life?

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