Hello again, its me. Here oh, I just wanna ask if I am doing the right things in this healing journey. (kabudlay if wala ka pamangkutan if you're going sane or what)

-everyday feels the same lang man. But, at the back of my mind, sometimes ga flashback pa ang thoughts of my ex and whatnot. I always try to shake my head everytime an unwanted thought of them pass by. I know I shouldn't be thinking about them na since it's already been 5 months, and it was only a 2 month and a half thing.

Sometimes I still get triggered by little things but unlike before, it only lasts for a good 5 seconds before I forget about it. What's harder is whenever I go out, and I see a random person who "looks" like them or maybe has the same hair and height or clothing, I always try to "follow" that person to confirm if it's really them or not. I don't know if this is normal and I really want to forget or maybe not bother about these things anymore since I know they're not here in Bacolod naman na (or maybe that's what I think). These thoughts include random things (which are not true) that pops in my head. I always reassure myself by thinking "it's not true, it's all in your head", or "wala nadi sila, they can't hurt you anymore". Nag resurface lang ni the other day after stalking their accounts (which I shouldn't have). Now, I have to double the work in helping me soothe my overthinking mind.

Please help your girlie out. I'm not losing my mind but maybe my mind is just trying to keep me safe, so it ensures that my surrounding is free of any signs of them. I don't wanna be praning always especially right now when I go out.

Is this normal? What should I do to counter these thoughts? Is there meds that block this part of the mind (kasi I heard from my cousin before that it does help, but like before I could visit the psychologist, I was already doing better so I never bothered)

p.s: my work and social circle keeps me distracted but since the information nga nabal-an ko the other day, it's gonna take me a little while for me to adjust and not think about them again anymore.

pps: please no hate comments lang. I'm vv sensitive and I am just trying to figure things out on my own. I'm doing better, I promise. I just need a little support and I know I'll figure it out like I always do.

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