After being postponed twice my baby shower is now officially cancelled and I am honestly heartbroken. It wasn't even going to be a big thing, just my mum and my siblings and maybe my aunt coming up to celebrate with me and help me pick and buy some stuff at local shops and because this is the first baby of my siblings and cousins I figured it would be special even though my family lives 4ish hours away I really thought they'd celebrate with me because I go up every year for Christmas, as many birthdays as I can, and my mum's wedding. But no, they postponed due to sickness (I wasn't mad or disappointed then) then postponed because my mum decided work was more important, and then they called with a new date.... The week after I'm due. When I said that the reaction was, "Oh, I guess you're not getting a baby shower then."

After being pushed aside my whole life I really thought it would be different this time, but I guess I should have been prepared from not having birthday parties starting at 4 even though my siblings did because my mum decided that I don't like being the centre of attention, and only once ever getting a Christmas present that I actually liked and not something that immediately got taken by a sibling.

My partners family lives across the country and I have basically no friends in this city so now I just feel so alone. My husband cares a lot and he's been making this pregnancy really easy for me but this is just one thing he can't do or fix for me and I'm just so heartbroken because of it.

Sorry for the complaining, I just wanted somewhere to vent and cry :(