Well ladies, I now join the ranks of being a first time mom. I'm terrified and just overwhelmed. My fiancé is handling it a lot better than me, as he is actually excited to have kids. I on the other hand, didn't think this would happen so soon. I wanted it to wait a few years, get settled, get a house, have my career started better. But I guess you know what happens with the best laid plans of mice and men.

I just really wish I could be excited for it. It's not that I don't want it, I just wanted it later. I'm very emotional about it and don't know how to handle. I told my mother and she did not seem excited about it at all. I was afraid she was going to be pissed at me (fyi, I'm 21 but just graduated college) but instead, she sounded disappointed. I love my mom to death but she has that way of turning things that I'm either happy about or on the fence about and just making them worse. My fiancé is pretty supportive and I can count on him but I just feel like I've let people down by having this happen. Like it's my fault for getting pregnant.

I really just needed to rant about this but I would appreciate some support for this. I don't really know what to do and I need some guidance. So if anyone has any advice, encouragement, or anything else really to talk about, I would really appreciate it. I just found out from the doctor this morning so I'm only about maybe 4 weeks along if anyone was curious.

Edit: Thank you so much for your words of encouragement! I really appreciate all that everyone has shared with me. I know it'll take time to come to terms with everything but I know it will turn out fine. My mom has seemed to overcome her surprised/shocked phase and sounds a little more excited. My Dad and best friend are both really happy for me and excited to see what is to come. I'm glad I'm not the only one that's felt what I'm feeling and I just can't thank you guys enough for what you have said.