So I had a doctor appointment on Friday, it was also my first cervical check which wasn't actually as worrying or scary as I had previously been thinking it would be. Anyways I learned that my baby girl is coming down I guess but I am not opening any yet, which it would have been cool to have been dilated a little but no big deal since you can be dilated for weeks before getting to active labor. My doctor also cleared me for vaginal birth which I have wanted and said my baby isn't too big so no c section.

Now its just time for me to wait to have her since my doctor's office gave me my pregnancy record for if I go into labor I can just take it to L&D. I am not good at waiting though, I want her here now! I have pretty much all of her stuff set up and ready. Her diaper bag is good to go, my hospital bag is almost complete, and I just have a few little things left to do around my room to make sure I am ready for her completely.

I have heard what going into labor feels like and entails as well, so now that the waiting period is here I feel like I am looking for signs of impending labor all the time too. I know I should just relax and take time to myself until its go time, but I am just done with pregnancy and want to start the mommy part of life with my baby girl.

I have no clue what to do to pass time. I am not currently in school, since I still need to do the GED test which I can't do until mid next month as the only place nearby is switching to a new system and I won't be doing college classes until the end of August still. I don't have a job and can't exactly get one right now, plus I wouldn't be able to work anyways with how tired I get lately and my complete lack of energy. My best friend, who is the only friend I really hang out with and has a 1 year old son, is kind of a brat at times and is also in school during the mornings so its boring hanging out with her lately.

I have been going over to my sister's almost every day for the last 2 months though but I feel like she gets annoyed with me there. She just had her newest son on the 1st of last month so I have been helping her with him and her 2 older kids but I get tired out of no where and ended up taking a nap at her house which I think bugs her a lot.

I just feel like I have nothing to do to pass the time. Any there is no money to go out and do anything fun, the only park in town is horrible, and I have no one else to hang out with or talk to about anything except for my family and they tend to sleep from early morning hours until just after noon and they are probably getting tired of talking baby stuff with me.