Last week, I kind of felt like my cousin had stolen my thunder with our family by telling everyone she was pregnant a few days before I was going to announce to everyone my pregnancy. I had waited 12 weeks to tell everyone, she announced at 5 weeks. I thought this was unwise, as all but one of her pregnancies has ended in miscarriage.
I will admit, it was really shitty for me to be upset and pissed off with her about this, I should have been happy for her, because she lives to be a mother. All I do is bitch and moan on this sub about how I'm miserable about this or that. So I feel like a piece of shit. Well, now she has posted on fb that she feels like the inevitable is happening (meaning she is most likely having another miscarriage). This is bad in more ways than the most obvious, of course. My cousin is on a lot of medication, and every time she has suffered a miscarriage, she ends up in the Psych Ward in the hospital.

I just feel like a total jerk, and now I can't stop crying because I feel like a hateful bitch.

Edit: My cousin just got home from the hospital, and is doing just fine.