So I've been swinging, somewhat randomly, into states of crushing depression where all I can do is curl up in a ball and cry. These bouts of depression and ocasionally broken up by panic attacks.

Sometimes I feel just ok, but that rarely lasts long. Today at work, a client called me a liar and my boss took his side. I freaked out. I cried and threw all of my shit down and ran away. My heart felt like it was going 150 beats a minute and I couldn't breathe, so I left the office and I went for a very long walk. This was all also in the midst of a much larger workplace conflict regarding several employees stealing, but that's not important. I'm not involved directly.

I have an alarmingly frequent tendency to become panicked like that lately. I don't know, the past few weeks? It is begininning to feel a lot like my PPD/post partum psychosis did after my daughter was born and it feels like it will just get worse and I will end up losing my job.

What do I do? I already have an Rx for ativan to take for panic attacks. I have taken several within the past three weeks or so. Nothing seems to touch the depression, though. That just stays around for as long as it wants.

I know I need to talk to my doctor about this, but I already am on medication for this, I wasn't on any at all, I don't want to get put on even more. What are my options?