I’m 26 weeks pregnant and it’s really starting to hit me that I’ll soon be giving birth. Honestly, the pain is the least of my concerns. I usually handle pain pretty well and am good at reminding myself it’s temporary and staying calm I’ve always had a higher pain tolerance. I’m more worried about me or my baby dying. Well actually- the thought of me dying does scare me from time to time but the thought of something happening to my baby is REALLY what causes me so much anxiety, it almost makes me cry to think about. I love her so much I don’t think I could fathom losing her, it would destroy me. I don’t think I could ever recover mentally. l worry so much about birth related injuries, and the many other things that can go wrong if I go through a traumatic vaginal birth. I guess it’s a taste of what motherhood is, already being so worried sick that my baby will be okay. Part of me just wants to get an elective c section to ease my nerves but everyone tells me how horrible of a birth experience it is and how painful the recovery is but part of me doesn’t give a shit about any of that as long as my baby is healthy and comes into this world stress free. Maybe I’m just being crazy. How do my other ftm cope w it?