Maybe I’m overthinking it or something but I’m a 30 y/o FTM and almost 16w along. I’m excited to be a mom and my husband is excited to be a dad, but throughout the entirety of my pregnancy, I have yet to shed a single tear out of joy.

I was of course happy and excited for all the “milestones” but I’ve yet to get that overwhelming feeling of joy/emotion and tear up or anything. When I got the first positive home test, I was surprised (although the pregnancy was planned) but I just chalked that one up to shock. When we told friends, they would cry out of happiness for us. When we told our parents/siblings, they all teared up out of excitement. When we saw our ultrasound for the first time, the ultrasound tech asked if I was okay because all I was doing was smiling, I guess she expected me to cry? When we heard the heartbeat for the first time, my husband cried. When we found out it was a boy, husband and family cried again. I’m always just excited but not overwhelmed with emotion at all for some reason.

Maybe it has something to do with being the pregnant one? Like I’m going through all this exhaustion and body changes and these little milestones are great but not enough to get me choked up. I guess now I’m worrying that when baby is here I won’t have a connection to it at first, which I know is normal, but still. I’m not reacting to any of this how I thought I would, even with the pregnancy hormones! I was never a crier before being pregnant but I was kinda hoping that would change and pregnancy would soften me up and open me up a bit. But I’m only 16w so maybe I’ve got time for that.

Idk, sorry for the rant, I’m just starting to worry I’m psychopathic or something lol.