I’m so tired, I’m 23 5 weeks and I don’t have the “second trimester relief” , After the torture of first trimester I started having a different type of pain in the second, I have gastritis (stomach issues because of too much medication) and my bones hurt like hell Sleeping is now an amazing luxury I can only have 3-4 hours at time (I miss sleeping for 8hrs straight) and baby kicks are getting stronger which is amazing but really uncomfortable and painful.

I gained so much weight, not just the bump but all my body is getting so much bigger, my libido is getting stronger but my husband is refusing to have sex and he’s depressed and going through his own issues but I’m sure there’s a slight possibility that he doesn’t like how I look anymore even if he didn’t say it to hurt me but I feel it because I know he masturbates, but again I’m just guessing.

I know I still have a long way to go, but I’m so tired, this pregnancy was a mistake but I started to accept it and love it, However I don’t like that I lost everything in this process and I know it will only get worse from here.