It could literally be the smallest, dumbest, most inconsequential thing but somehow it doesn't seem to matter how good of a mood I'm in if something goes 'wrong.'

I wish it were as easy as distracting myself or something, I try really hard to keep positive energy when I've got it, but it just doesn't work. Can be feeling the best ever and then just plummet with a single look or sound or less. Sometimes it feels like a bit of a curse to feel good since that seems to be directly proportional to how small something can be to just ruin everything.

Emotional whiplash aside, it's horribly demoralising to go from really vibing and enjoying myself to, well, that other thing 😩

Hoping someone might have stumbled onto something I haven't tried yet to keep the good energy inside, or at least the bad from overtaking it on a whim.