I do not really know what to feel. It seems really ridiculous that I am at this subreddit again. I do not know what hit me. Maybe because two years ago, on Christmas day, I decided to pack my things and leave all of her and her family's BS behind.

I stalked her a bit and the guy he lined up after me. They were not together anymore. Good riddance I guess? I do not know what to feel.

Grieving has its own timeline I guess. Even when Im in a healthy relationship now. Even when I already got back up. Even when all the things that happened ever since I left are worthy of gratitude. It just feels like I am back at square one.

Years went by but the hurt just seems like yesterday. Like earlier. It's ugly crying while packing my things in 10 in the morning, All Over Again.