I finally got the balls to break up with him nearly a year ago now. But his jealousy, his constant insecurity projecting onto me, his unpredictable emotions, the lovebombing, I know it was toxic but because my current girlfriend doesn’t have those traits in a twisted way it feels like something is missing. And I know I shouldn’t be feeling this way but I do.

I love my girlfriend, and she loves me too. It feels WEIRD that I know she loves me for who I am as a person, I’m not just an extension, or an attention faucet for her. To my ex, that was all I was to him. And I know it shouldn’t feel this way and I shouldn’t even be complaining. But I cant shake this feeling. The stability I’m having in this relationship just feels intuitively wrong. And I’m scared I’m gonna ruin it.