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I may be off the reservation here, but has anyone ever experienced any sort of "lingering connection" with an ex, even well after you're split up, and even over the relationship? This connection existed during our relationship, during breakups where we eventually got back together, as well as now, well into what is the "final discard" (lol).
I get random incoming surges of emotion. I always feel them right in my gut, but it is clearly not a muscular or digestive sensation. I can usually tell the tone of these emotions, and obviously feelings of stress, panic and anger are strongest.
During one of our big major split ups (before we got back together), during a longer stretch of NC, I got pulled out of sleep super early in the morning. Heart in my throat, stomach roiling with incoming emotions.
Later that day i reached out asking what was wrong. She was venomous and cold, but told me she was freaking out because her grandfather had passed away, and she had learned about it very early in the morning.
More recently, since we have been in NC for almost a year now, I will have days where I am doing my own thing, perfectly content and busy, and I will get a rush of emotions and that feeling in my gut. I can feel that it is her. It is usually anger or panic. Occasionally it makes me laugh, like I can't help but laugh, even though its a very invasive and uncomfortable feeling.
It is worth mentioning I have experienced similar "connective" situations with others in my life, namely my Ex-wife. Oddly enough I only ever felt the same sensations on days I knew she was in court or her lawyers office.
Lastly, I am normally a very science minded, skeptical person. Everything about this feels based in spiritualism, and despite looking for several ways to explain this more rationally, my several experiences of confirmed cause and effect has proven to me this is something beyond my ability to explain.
It keeps the last shred of this on my mind, and I want rid of that. It makes me feel like there's another shoe to drop, and that this story, and our connection, isnt through yet, and that bugs me out a bit.
Anyone else ever experience something like this?
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