She ended things in December because she'd "never been single" and needed to find herself. It had only been like 6 months together. She asked if we could still be best friends that talk every day, still go on dates we had planned, etc. I said i would be her friend, no to the dates, and i obviously took some space from her (not replying to every text, starting to distance myself, etc).

she hopped on tinder and had someone 10 days post breakup. i didn't know it at the time, but suddenly she was the one distancing herself from me. suddenly she was blaming me for things in the relationship, saying it would've never worked, how i had hurt her by these things i'd done, etc. then one day went off on me basically saying i was the worst and blocked me on everything.

they went public on sm, started saying they loved each other right away, they manifested each other, etc. i was off socials so i didnt find out for a few months. but from december to april, she was sending me anonymous messages online, randomly reaching out about things, promising to pay me back money she owed me, etc.

i thought we were on good terms. good-ish. she promised to pay me back the thousands she owed me around april 14. i unfollowed her on spotify and posted a playlist i made for my new partner which maybe triggered her somehow cause april 14 came and went. then on april 16 she sends me a snap but blocks me immediately after so i have no idea what she said. i haven't reached out since then.

i then posted my new gf for the first time (have been taking it very slow). my ex blocked me.

its now been like, a month? a month of no anonymous messages, no random accounts messaging me, nothing from her. i don't look at her socials, but i know her and her new partner are making NSFW content together. so i just try to stay away from everything because i still dont like seeing it.

anyways, i'm upset about the money, yes. and i know i should be thankful she isn't reaching out to me anymore. but part of me is sad she isn't. it was nice to know that even though she was publicly announcing her love for this person, she was still thinking of me and couldn't resist reaching out to me in those ways. i know pwbpd cycle and it is likely when they break up she will come back around. but i just want to be okay regardless... i'm currently resisting the urge to reach out to her. but its been 6 months, and i thought i would be over this by now.

edit: i’m not trying to get the money back