I finally got out. No more physical attacks, emotional torture, and cheating… no more destroyed clothes and no more being called every name and accused of lying about everything. But now she’s gone all I see in the couple of people I’ve been involved with are BPD traits and red flags. But I actually think they have BPD. Am I a magnet? I know normal people exist but I always seen mutually drawn to BPD people and it makes me feel sick and depressed to think I might never have a normal relationship or that maybe I’m not good enough to deserve real love. It always feels so great when they love you most and you’re the FP but it’s short lived and then you’re stuck with the chaos of it all… I want real love and I don’t think I’ll ever have it.