You can see my history and i been a regular here

She tried to reach back out and rebuild the relationship

Reading between the lines it was more of a want and there was no apology lets pretend nothing happened

Long story short this set me back she did this via reaching out a mutual friend who i told i did this on purpose and with thought she then called me petty which brought me back to talk to said ex

I got the sudden rush of anxiety all over again its at this moment i realized this was a trauma bond i feel anxious not happy

I kept my distance and somehow i reconnected with a girl i met once a year ago and we hit it off but in a good way. She was everything shes not and i couldn’t be happier. We have been taking it slow and she comes from such an emphatic place.

The funny thing is this girl can dump me but its ok i feel shes giving me the greatest gift possible and a new outlook on life as strange as that sounds. There is a finality in a way.

Anyways keep trucking theres someone out there for ya!