i feel like i’m crazy. like something is really wrong with me. that i’m sick and i’ll never get better. i haven’t showered in 3 days. i’m exhausted. mentally my brain won’t shut off but i can’t speak. i sit in anxiety and it’s like my body freezes and i can’t move. but my mind never stops. it’s exhausting. i try to watch tv and distract my mind to get away from it but it doesn’t work for long. the thoughts always creep back in. and this causes me to emotionally shut down to my boyfriend. because i’m so exhausted from what i’m feeling as he’s trying to get attention from me that i just don’t have anything to give. and i try to break free of the grip it has on me but it’s so hard and i’m so tired. i’m starting to think it will never get better. that i’m a bad egg. i just want my brain better. i don’t know what to do anymore.