Like I'm so sick of this shit man. I just got off the bus, idk what it's like in other places but here 9/10 drivers if not all will open the front door if you're getting off and you're in the front seat, ESPECIALLY if the bus is packed. Well so I'm in that front seat for that exact reason, I don't want to squeeze past loads of people especially being plus size and also with my anxiety. So I get up, literally my seat is right next to the driver, so I ask him if he could maybe open the front door. He raised his voice at me, interrupted me and just said "BACK." in an aggressive tone. I felt so embarrassed but also angry because what the fuck man now it took me almost a whole minute to squeeze past people. All these people were staring at me too. I wish I could've just said that it doesn't make sense to have someone do that but I just rushed my way out and felt so publicly humiliated that I cried on the street for 2 seconds, then composed myself and sprinted to my apartment so I could fucking BAWL for 5 whole minutes. Now with something like this it's not even that bad, but it's also the reason I can't work because when an employer tells me I did something wrong I also feel the same way and I will literally run away and cry. Then I'll get angry at them for embarrassing me and being unfair and I'll just quit. How do I not let my emotions take over in those moments?