I keep having moments of realization. My life since my diagnoses feels like an unraveling puzzle of figuring out who I am and why. Mostly my feelings.

Recently I have been feeling as if my life is made up of dichotomous situations . I had noooooo idea I was "splitting."

I was just thrown a diagnoses and kind of left to figure life out on my own. 5 minutes on this thread and you have all explained so much for me.

I am open to any and all advice.

I'm a Disabled Veteran. I take medication but I don't see a therapist because my therapists have sucked in the past.

I have a bachelors degree in psychology and some postgrad so I know things but I guess not in the lens of caring for myself as weird as that is.